thelma: you there ...?
selma: yes
selma: you ok?
thelma: not my best
selma: so I heard from your message
thelma: oh yeah
thelma: I'm pretty transparent
thelma: the whole day has not been shit
thelma: just parts of it
selma: so what were the shit parts?
thelma: huh?
thelma: oh me
thelma: I thought you were talking about your blog
selma: ha
thelma: a horrific fight
selma: like I'd ask
thelma: about ADD stuff
selma: oh boy
thelma: I was more angry I'd been in a long time
selma: wow
thelma: which is a sign that I've been pushed a little too far in the 'hurt' category
thelma: and it wasn't the screaming or throwing things kind of angry
thelma: it was the quiet, venom-eyed, steely-voiced kind
selma: hmmm
thelma: but I have to reconstruct myself from the ground up
thelma: and it goes in fits and starts ...
selma: that is rough
thelma: when someone lays something on me about how I 'don't care' about doing these things—responsibilities—and I've put up with that kind of garbage my whole life—so I react bigtime
thelma: it's sort of insult to injury, y'know
selma: yes
thelma: when something is so difficult and you've struggled a lifetime with it and seen all kinds of opportunities pass by
thelma: and then there's a big judgment about my 'character failing' laid on top of it
thelma: nice.
selma: did you get that across?
thelma: so, well, to be fair, other people have to cope with my stuff
thelma: but to be fair to me: I've lived with me for forty years
thelma: rant over
selma: an interesting viewpoint:
selma: you think YOU have it bad—I've lived with me my whole life!
So when does Brad pitt enter and steal all your money? Don't worry, it will only get better.
Posted by: Lee | Wednesday, 19 January 2005 at 01:43 PM